After a hiatus of almost 3 years, I am back again ready to write and post once more. Part of my absence had to do with my preoccupation with future studies. As of now, I am pursuing my masters in college, different from the one I studied earlier in. My use of grammar and English has changed extensively and I’m pretty sure I have also lost most of my creative writing abilities (which is such a shame because I always wanted to be a writer since I was 7). I would never understand how law came into my life. Many people I know, at some point, have families who are in the legal profession or wanted to become a lawyer or judge at some point in their life. Not for me. History, Economics or Journalism were my plans for college majors but fate had something different in store. I don’t regret having studied law. People respect you when you say you have a law degree especially when they know you are doing a masters or post doctorate (though I’m pretty dumb and not persistent enough to be doing both haha). People run to you for legal advice when in secret, you have never done an actual legal job since graduating and have also forgotten 102% of the stuffs you learned in class. They will try to popularize you especially in the small community that I live in when the truth is that a quarter of the world are already law graduates and many of them, doing something else that fit better with their goals, interests and life aspirations (I could be one of those).
Whatever it is, finding a suitable path and career in life is difficult but trying never hurts. Life takes us to unknown paths and at 24, exploring one’s interests and skills and honing one’s abilities are never too late.
A sincere apology to my followers and readers for not having written anything in a long time. Exams and school life is just too difficult to handle at this moment and I am still trying to deal with my falling grades while I plan to join moot courts and search for jobs all at the same time. It might sound petty to some but for me, for someone who has always had a parent for support and relied on other people to do things for me, it really is a herculean task. And the fact that all of these are just crashing down on me makes it more difficult to juggle everything all at once. So putting my tribulations and personal rant aside, tomorrow will be Christmas and everyone is excited about opening up presents, decorating the Christmas trees, shopping, skiing, going to church and simply spending time with family. While we are all busy celebrating, shopping, visiting awesome places, taking selfies and posting them on Instagram, Facebook or on whatever digital media you can get your hands on, do we ever, or even once, stop to think and wonder why we celebrate Christmas? It is definitely not Santa and it is definitely not about opening gifts and presents. Well, to some extent Christmas is about sharing and caring. But shouldn’t sharing and caring be a part of our daily practice? Growing up in a Christian family, I have always been taught and I also believe that Christ was born on this day, December 25, to die on the cross for the salvation of humanity’s sin. This is what Christmas is about – the birth of a Saviour, a King, God in human flesh, born in the humblest of origins so that He could die for our sins and redeem us from eternal damnation. The world is blinded by this truth and even if people know, they continue to be blinded by lies and deny the true meaning of Christmas. I do agree that Christmas, as the birth of Jesus Christ, should be celebrated in all its glory but we must not forget to praise and thank Him who has died and rose for us, to remember that had He not been born on this day, the world would not have been saved, WE would not have been saved. But because He was born, we now have a choice and hope. May the Holy Spirit enrich our lives and reveal to the world the miracles of God and to the hardened hearts and those dwelling in darkness, that Jesus Christ is Lord.
I listen to this song when my mind has completely become stripped off from reality. I live in an entwined world of twisted roads, forgotten pathways and unsung melodies. This ballad helps me lift my spirits and makes me more aware of love and romance in my own life and in other people’s life as well.
Just how nice to start the New Year by going back to school, arranging all my notes and textbooks in a neat pile, forgetting my security lock combination after reaching the place and journeying to a chilly winter morning inside the classroom with obscure Calculus symbols waiting for us on the board. That is the last thing I wanted to see. I cannot wait until the end of May when I’ll be rid of Mathematics hording my already stressed-out life. Oh well, this is only the beginning and complaining is not going to work. After two whole weeks of a grandiose vacation filled with candy sprinklers, bright Christmas lights, sparkling buildings at night and promenading in a world blasting with firecrackers at the start of 2012, it is extremely hard to get myself on track. It even took me ages to finish up my assignments and essays during the break. Now I’m already piled up with loads of stuff to finish up just for today. I’ve become exhausted after being trapped for six hours inside that hell of a prison. My brain is literally at the point where my intake of information has completely halted to a stop.
Sitting here on top of the bustling city square, I wait for you while gazing at the falling sunset. I wait for your arrival, anticipating your presence- I only wish to share a moment with you while we sit together under the quiet stars.